Damn those set backs!

I know! I know! It has been awhile!!!! Life has been kicking my behind! But, I keep kicking back, which has caused me to have a bad back. I fell down a flight of stairs at my home a few weeks ago. Yes, it has been painful, but more than that it has been an inconvience!!! It has proven to be a big set back on my weight loss journey! As I've mentioned, I am an emotional eater, this has all been emotional for me. I also have not been able to work out, which is so frustrating.

As I have been going through this I was talking to my counselor, who voiced to me that she was not surprised that I fell nor that I am still fighting headaches and physical issues. When she asked me if I thought I was supper woman who could get over losing the first love of my life (my dad) after 48 years, pushing away my brother after 44 years and walking away from the man I loved for 7 years and I seem to think I can be fine after only a efw short months? Who do I think I am? Hearing it that way I can see the silliness of trying to be "OK" at this point in the journey. When I asked her how I fix it and get past all this, she laughed and said "my dear, you can not control the process!" So, I have given into it. I'm trying to practice the good eating, being patient with myself, incorporating more mediation, prayer and relaxation into my life, journaling, etc.

Again, these are all baby steps and the goal here was never to be skinny in a few months. It was getting to know the me I know is in here. And yes, that includes a skinny me, but it also involves alot more. I have to learn to find the balance of Kathy ..... physically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, etc. That is a bigger process that I thought, but it is also looking to be more rewarding than I thought, when I get to the place where I find ME! The tools I have in place are the tools i need at this point, my family, my friends, my God and my intuition. Baby steps, and some might be backwards, but it's still the journey!