It's all in the mind, my dear Watson!

What I am doing here is living an adventure and capturing it on a blog, but first and foremost living it each and everyday. That is no different than everyone else out there in the world. We are all on an adventure. What makes us different is how our mind perceives that adventure and how we choose to take it on.

For me right now, I want to transition from a morning state of lose to an open state of joy. Food for me has always been apart of both extremes. When I'm sad and depressed I eat, when I'm excited and over joyed, I eat, when I'm bored I shop for food, and then I eat! You get the picture! In order to change this "habit", this way of life as I know it, I have to change my mind, my perception of what food means to me. Just like I'm having to change my perception of who Tom was in my life for the past 6+ years to who he is now, like what part my dad played in my life on a daily basis for 48 years, to what he plays in my life today. None of these are easy transitions, they take time and baby steps. You have to take it slowly and make small changes at first, until you look back and realize how far you have come and what huge changes you have made. To try to do it all at once, would be impossible. Tom has been gone for 9 months, dad for 3, but I am farther ahead today than I was months ago. So, I have to learn to let go of some foods, some habits, some "needs". Before January 1, when I really set out on this change, I need to set weekly goals, which I will do. Writing this blog has already proven to be helpful, encouraging, holding me accountable, and part of the process. No body may ever read this, but like a diary, it makes me accountable to me and it helps me to see where my mind is at on this journey. I don't feel like I am on this alone and that mental is worth millions! Ok, enough seriousness, I have to run to the deli for a large moca/hazelnut latte and a blue berry muffin! (Hey, it's not Jan 1, yet!) (Oh, the tricks our mind plays on us to justify the action!)