A Small Slide

You start out with such great intentions, your flying high, things are going the way you wanted them to, and then .......... BAM!!!!! You hit an iceberg! So, it goes for diets, life and especially the Titanic.

Why is it that when you feel lousy, sick, down, etc. your hunger pains increase. Is it physiological or physical or both?

OK, so it's not the end of the world, it's not even the end of my journey, it is just that ..... a journey.

In the past week I have not lost any weight, but on the bright side, I have not gained any weight either.

I've been dealing with migraines for the past couple of weeks, and while I'm experiencing an episode I have no real desire to eat, which, believe it or not is just as bad as over eating. Your body needs the full for your metabolism to keep running, and your metabolism running is what eats your fat. So, when you don't feel like eating and your laying in bed for days, metabolism is down for the count! Then, you start to feel a little better, but your weak, physically and mentally, so you eat whatever is in front of you. I have been pretty good about only eating good things that are on my diet, the problem then becomes portion control! So, I eat the chicken and salad, but instead of 6 and 8 ounces, it's a huge bowl of the a chicken salad! I guess I can give myself points for choosing the right foods, but I lose points for eating so much of it!! Like pudding for instance. I can have the sugar free pudding cups, fine, but not 3 cups at once. Some days, it just seems like the Diet God's are against me. But, hey, I fight back!!

And another things, friends Are not always supportive! You go along on you diet by yourself doing fine, then a wonderful friend or friends, invite you for a little socializing, you try not to drink or eat bad foods. You look at the menu for a healthy choice, while you friends start drinking. Well, being the Irish Princess that I am, who can refuse a good beer, just one!!! HA!!!! One leads to 5!!!! Then, you see nothing on the menu that is carb free, so one friend says, just order something and start your diet again tomorrow. Why sure, that sounds like a plan!!! HA! That's like telling an alcoholic "I know you have been sober for a month, but just have one drink and start again tomorrow!" Them let's talk about the next day guilt trip you put your self through! You realize you deserve to wake up the next morning feeling like crap! You body is rebelling, saying, "what did you do to me you big tease! I was working with you here, accepting the no carb, low fat, high protein thing, and then you tease me with the stuff I really love, well, take this!!!" And your body starts to rebel!!! Hence you feel like a nasty truck drive whose been partying all night long! (not that I have anything against truck driver. I'm sure they are very nice people!)

So, now you see the dilemma I find myself in, or maybe you don't. But, I may have lost the fight, but I have not lost the BATTLE!

Nike does a contest every year based on the Biggest Loser, Nike's version is TEAM MELTDOWN. You get a team of 3, sign up, pay an entry fee, have lectures, workout classes, buddies to work out with, etc. It's 3 months long and you're weighted in at the beginning, a couple times in the middle, and at the end. The winner's get a bunch of money and stuff. I did it last year and was going to pass this year. I didn't want to pay to do what I knew I needed to do on my own. But, then a friend signed me up on her team, paid my entry fee, and has now motivated me. So I weight in tomorrow (which maybe this weeks set back will work to my advantage, I'll weight more tomorrow and it will look like I've lost more weight in the end). I think with my friend relying on me I can be more motivated, which I guess contradicts my earlier comment that about friends not being supportive (that comment DOES NOT apply to you either, Chris!!!).

So, here I go ...... again! See ya next week!!!!