Scary Start

With any journey you must first take a look at where you came from and what brought you to this place. Yes, 2009 brought with it ALOT of stress, to much really! I've looked at my past, taken stock of who I am, and also realized that I am extremely blessed! I have my family, my health, my job, my great friends all over the country, my love of giving to others, but there comes a time when wisdom takes over and you ask, is there more? My opinion is YES! Isolating yourself is not the answer, feeling sorry for yourself is not the answer, surrounding yourswelf with people who don't get you is not the answer. Life is a journey and we are constantly starting new ones and connect with new people along the way.

This Christmas is turning out to be a lot harder than I thought it would be, which makes me turn to my main comfort ..... Food! I'm not overly secure in my future with the decision I will need to make in the new coming year, which causes me to turn to my main comfort ..... Food. My main GO-TO man, my dad, is suddening not around to .... go to, which again allows me to turn to, yep you got it, ...... food!

So, I have to wrap my head around something else that will be a "comfort", and given that it won't be drinking or drugs, I have to find it somewhere else.

Just like it was very hard to wrap my brain around the idea that I will need to buy some clothes from LANE BRYANT if I'm going to make it through next Monday when BIG clients come in for a business meeting that I'm pulling together, and it get through the holidays, I have to wrap my brain around the fact that something has to change for me to be in a better place by the time I'm 50, which by the way is 19 months.

So, yes, I went through alot in 2009, but it will soon be a closed out year, done, over, behind me! Then it will be time to look forward to good thing, an exciting journey, and getting to know the me I know is in here!!!